Hiya there everybody! Its great to be back blogging again. I hope that I would be able to do this more regularly. Seems like I've not posted anything after college. Well, this picture should give a glimpse of the new friends I made after November 2, 2009 and the 3.5 month long journey we had together at C-TEA, Mysore.
Being my 1st time away from home, I was actually kind of excited always wanting to make independent choices and stay with different people.
Ok, I'll give you that 3.5 months is never enough to know anybody, let alone a lifetime. But the glances into human behaviour, the longing for close relationships warring against the security of keeping distances was something I saw 1st hand.
Not that I was perfect! The C-TEA experience was definitely required to help me find out that I loved having times of being alone. That had its own drawbacks as I would be so absorbed in my own thoughts at times oblivious of my surroundings. Hmmmmm well, what can you do when you don't have a fellow believer to share your mind struggles with in the midst of the bunch of 24 energetic and fantabulous people, unsaved they maybe? {Neem, your calls kept me going till the last day of training! Like my friends at C-TEA would say, I AM THE THANK YOU!!! :P
Within me it was two hungers driving me:
1. My hunger to walk with God and not compromise my testimony. Mark that word 'testimony'....
{never knew how deceiving that word can be to our Christian walk especially when you measure spiritual success in terms of how many people you're saving , how many people you convince of the claims of the gospel (note again the funny phrase: "you're saving","you convince"). This shifts the focus of one' spiritual life from loving God and loving others to being a "witness" and its just a matter of time before hypocrisy and legalism set in.}
2. My longing to be with them and learn how to effectively communicate the gospel (funny I'm typing this while I should be with them....not that I'd know what to talk except listen and MAYBE pass funny comments most of which would be either PJs or mokkais or chalus or kaali tamaashas {ok I made that up :P}) Ok, back from a little time with my roomies some of whom are there in these pictures.
I'm learning to balance these feelings now only that the primary motive I've kept before myself is to love God and to love others. May my longing to witness and be a testimony NEVER exceed my longing to love Him and honour Him!
1 comment:
Hi da, the struggle to convince others to b saved and to b a bit pushy is a stage in being a Christian. Just remember as u did to come back and focus on God. He will guide ur next step and the place to drive ur net for fish.
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